a very vivid nightmare...

watched the anime "Monster" not too long ago [the main point was that this fellow can play with the minds of people and can manipulate others, esp children to do his bidding] *don't spoil the story too much, esp for those who haven't watched it before or haven't even heard about it* =P

been studying (somewhat studiously and religiously) lately,
been listening to kwame's webcasts almost everyday

and last night...

something happened.

crime case in the news: bodies without their heads have been discovered all aorund Singapore. i played detective with my good fren and the clues and evidence led us to this kid, from Bedok Primary School (my god i even dreamt of an actual school, and my fren does exist okay, she's studying real estate in NUS now, also taught by "km" before, no prizes for guessing who it is)

we decided to share our views with km, and we became more convicted that the killer was actually the little kid.

one night i actually saw the kid dragging a man under a car, he was holding a knife with blood stains and there was blood all over the ground... i caught sight of the kid's face, and saw that he had this maniacal expression.. i was so freaked out i quickly ran away and called up my fren and we went to km's office the very same night

upon leaving km's office, i spotted a book lying on his bookshelf - "Bedok Primary Realty Layout"

i told my fren about it when we got into a cab and then it struck us that it might be km who is the mastermind (why else would he have a book about Bedok Primary?)

we talked about the case in the cab and headed to our own homes.
after which, i found out that i was bugged. i called up my fren and she realised she was bugged too. we confirmed that the only place we were together that day was at km's office, and only there could he have bugged us. which means he knows our exact location right now, and possible heard our entire conversation.

we decided to meet up and go for drinks. upon stepping in we realise we were getting stares from alot of people. two huge men made their way towards us. we ran and got into a cab, asking the driver to drive off... we threw the bugs out of the cab window halfway through the ride...

but too late, the driver was km himself!!!!

and this very moment... my alarm clock rang and i JUMPED out of bed.

it was 10am when i was awakened and now its 6.30pm and i still remember the nightmare VERY VIVIDLY.

=(

inherent biases...

#1 - I (apparently) have slight preference towards African-Americans than European-Americans! [it came as quite a shock to me too! oops! =P]

#2 - I have strong preference towards Fat People than Thin People.

try this out for yourself and find out your inherent biases (you may not even be conscious of such biases!)

https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/demo/

they have many other tests...so have fun!

freaky numbers...

jus watched the number 23 in the cinema...
had a little fun with my own name and birthdate

TAN CHINN YUN
35 + 48 + 60 = 143
143 = 1x4x3 = 12

28 June 1985
28 + 6 + 1985 = 2019
2+1+9 = 12

2 + 8 + 6 + 1 + 9 + 8 + 5 = 39
3 + 9 = 12

so apparently, all my details either add up to 12, or 3.
up to u to choose.

hahhahaa.
this is fun.

had proj meeting on thursday,
not one of my favourite modules - environmental econs =/
still, that was one of the last meetings, so decided to show up.
was consolidating the final report, inadvertently commented on everyone's part, everyone did generally okay, did their part did their research and everything...
but there was one guy whose report was a little too theoretical.
my group leader felt the same way and told him to do somemore research on the spot to see if he can find more stuff...
so he did...stayed quiet for abt an hour or so while the rest of us continued our consolidating...

finally, i think he couldnt stand it anymore...
stev: "why are u asking me to research more and not others?"
sel: "because it is not enough..."
stev: "i've already done alot of research on the internet and this is the best that i can come up with"
sel: "i know, but i managed to find out one company which publishes everything abt what they are going to do and how they are going to do it."
stev: "do u wan me to search books from libraries? but my part cannot be found from books"
[this part i agree, coz his was on pressure groups from the US, so i dont think books will be a good reference]
stev: "sometimes its not that i don't wan to do things, but sometimes some things just cannot be done"
[man... another team member and i were jus staring at each other and giving that o.O expression...]
and then he went on to say things like "i've no time, im very tired, i've already read alot of reports and done alot of readings online, im just an exchange student, i jus wan to tranfer the units back to my home country, im not interested in this at all..." (-_-" right, i know)
[like hello, who's not tired, who has unlimited time at his/her disposal, and hello im also an exchange student, but even though u're on exchange, it shouldnt be a total slackoff should it? and furthemore, this is a GROUP project. it is supposed to be a GROUP effort, and this canada guy and i are also exchange students, but we doing our best to help with the proj report, and I'VE even done the powerpoint slides when no one else has... so whats the damn problem. next time when u go out to work u'll also have to do projects in GROUPS what, dont tell me he intends to give the same reasons (or are they excuses?) sigh.... i dont know... am i jus too naive?]

the conversation ended with,
sel: "okok, i'll do your part alright."

-_____________________-

i think i will try to help her with his part too.

sigh... this is one of my worst experiences in projects.

haha.

love is...

Love is
Waking up to see your face
Or kissing in the morning rain
Love is
The only thing that keeps me sane
At the end of the day is that I’ve got you

You’re my secret place
Where I can be myself
You connect with me
Like nobody else
Even though our circunstances changed
Our love still remains
Sit me on the ground
Still you help me fly
You got me to be patient
I’ll teach you to rely
So no matter what tomorrow brings
We got the simple things

Love is
The way your lips seem to curve when you see my face
And when I’m stressing like the world is turning upside down
It all make sense when you’re around




an old bsb song... but after listening to it on mp3 carefully,
i realised how beautiful it is

=)

noticeable traits abt ppl who succeed/do well

1. they refrain from forming cliques and submitting to group culture; they are individualistic

2. they are not afraid to speak up
[actually i think this shyness to speak up in class thing has been conditioned since young, "SHHH! Don't talk when I'm talking!" or "why is it like that?" - the entire class looks at u like u've said something wrong (-_-") see what i mean... sigh.]

anyways, moving on.

3. they are very independent

4. their thoughts are very mature and logical

5. they have well thought out goals, and they set timeline and achieve their targets

6. they constantly think about how they can do better, and not blame others or luck on things that happen to them

7. they earn 80% of the total income of the country, and they consist of only about 20% of the population =P

my point?

for me to know, for you to find out

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public transport has been so packed with people lately, esp during peak hours, and this is already happening when there're 4 million ppl in this little island, can u imagine what it'll be like if and when we reach that 6.5 million goal?

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i always wonder how come ppl are willing to spend 400-500k for a tiny hole called ur HDB flat. sure, land is scarce, but 400-500k for a "unit" in the air?

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being a bank is the best deal u can ever find.

note: BE the bank, not WORK in the bank. [workers that deal with numbers are often referred to as "bean counters". so sad. but so true.]

HAHA.

i wanna go home

first of all.... happy cny to all (its the 9th day so im still not late! haha)
second, its the end of sem break =(
which means mid-terms, and more intensive proj meetings with the deadline screaming in our faces.

thirdly, and most imptly,
im thinking of moving back home.
pros - spend time with family, mama cook for u, and i dun have to wash my clothes or mop the floor (haha)
cons - lesser/no more alone time, nowhere to vent my frustrations if im unhappy/pissed (i beat my pillow in hall in case u were wondering haha)
right now, the pros seem to outweigh the cons, by..... 20%? (60 vs 40%) =(
i sound so spoilt right, haha...
had enough of walking up and down the stairs and wondering what the previous person put inside the washing machine (in case u dunno, some peeps wash shoes in e machine, some peeps dun use washing powder when they wash their clothes)
plus, walking up and down expose u to the risk of falling and spraining or breaking something, which was what happened to my ankle abt half a yr ago.
dun care, i only talk to my roomie now anyway,
no one else is worth talking to,
its all small talk anyway.

from michael buble:
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home


ooooh by the way,
i'm a new fan of the tv series, 24!!!!
its soooooooooo exciting!!!!!!!!!!
and it was made before prison break, and i suspect some of the tactics pb used came from there lor hahahha
my video sources is peekvid.com for now,
most reliable thus far, although i think they do occasional site maintenance (depriving me of my 24!!)
wheeeeeheeee~
24 is a thriller indeed! nv fails to make me gasp/squeal/squirm in my seat anticipating their next action! alot of plot twists too!
haha i admit im an addict of 24 now!
cant get enough of Jack Bauer~
woooooooooot!
=D

v-day

celebrated v-day in the morning/afternoon this yr
he had seminar from 6-7pm
went cityhall
had hotpot from The Chinese Feast Restaurant
@ e basement of suntec where all the food is
FYI, they charge appetizers and drinks separately, so next time muz eat all of them ah! sigh... he paid extra $10++ for nothing. sobz =(
but overall the hotpot's not bad
their [carp sliced fish] is vvv yummy!!
e soup is not bad also, but a tad more MSG than i like.
went walking around suntec after that,
looking for mp3 player.
i've decided to get one for myself since the phone battery is kinda cmi already.
shall go hunting at simlim soon.
made our way back at around 3.30pm
he sent me to my room (i hate boon lay, stupid pulau ntu), den went back sch.
yep. our date on v-day.

i love the flowers. 6 x pink roses this year. =)

how come this semester seems to fly by...

its the end of week 5 already.
7 more weeks before my exchange at NUS ends.
i dun wan it to end leh.
although tutorials must be submitted, 10,000 projects and presentations, but somehow I like it here.
maybe all good things must really come to an end.
sigh.
but time really flies.

the very important news this week:
I got my internship settled!
yup. no fighting for 25 "sacred" spots, no resumes to write, dun even need interview!
HAHA. dunno if its a good or bad thing, but at least i dun have to worry abt applying to others and anticipating their replies (if any)!
=D
oh i jus realised i haven mention where the internship is gonna be.
its URA (Urban Redevelopment Authority),
and i'm attached to Property Research.
hope its gonna be good.
7th May....... anticipate... it makes my already-imaginative mind run wild.

haha.

-done for the week-

a ruined day

all because of a 8am lecture,
even though i woke up at 6am, i only managed to step into the LT at 8.45am
internal bodily struggle.

anyway, had class till 12 today (odd week tutorials)
and i had zero food from 6-12 (for fear of that internal bodily struggle again)
so, came back after 12. waited for joy to buy ba chor mee from NIE (it tasted better when eaten on e spot =/)
and so, ate at 2.30.
but a headache that was bugging me since 11am got worse, so i decided to slp at 3.30.
it was a power nap alright, i slept all the way till 8.
yes. 8pm.
woke up, went down to buy dinner with joy.
吃饱睡，睡饱吃 (haha)
and now, its 1230am, but i super dun feel like doing anything.
thank goodness i've done my financial econs tut for tmr.
left environmental.
somebody force me to pick up the pen.

=/